It's A Lovely Month

It's Ramadhan. 

This is my first Ramadhan in Jordan. Apart from my beloved family.

But, I'm really excited this year. Celebrating Ramadhan is like celebrating Aidilfitri.
Full of enjoyment. It's exciting.

I can't elaborate more about my feeling as I am speechless. 

Unbelievable. I am in a blessing month.

Hopefully, I am fully prepared and my heart is ready to go through this month of barakah.

Usually, we do forgive others and seek for forgiveness from others when it comes to Aidilfitri.

But then I realize that in the month of Ramadhan is a time for forgiveness.

In the Qur'an, it specifically states that Allah will forgive those that forgive others. 

Also, Allah has mercy on those that show mercy upon others.

Narrated ‘Ubaadah that the Messenger of Allah said, “Whoever seeks forgiveness for the believing men and believing women, Allah will write for him a good deed for EACH believing man and believing woman.” (Tabarrani)

The most beautiful month has come upon us. Almighty Allah says :

“The month of Ramadan is the one in which the Quran was sent down, a guidance for mankind, clear proofs for the guidance, the Criterion; so whoever amongst you witnesses this month, let him fast it." (Surah al-Baqarah 2:185)

In this blessed month, rewards of any good deeds are multiplied.

The Prophet (Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam) said: “Whoever draws near to Allah during it (Ramadan) with a single characteristic from the characteristics of (voluntary) goodness, he is like whoever performs an obligatory act in other times. And whoever performs an obligatory act during it, he is like whoever performed seventy obligatory acts in other times.” (Sahih Ibn Khuzaymah, no. 1887)

So, the first step we have to do is purifying our intentions. It is crucial that we purify and correct our intentions before doing any acts of worship. 

This is really important as we might have other underlying intentions in our hearts without realizing it.

"Verily actions are judged by intention." [Al-Bukhaari and Muslim]

That's why, before doing any good things, we need to focus only on one intention, which is doing good deeds for the sake of Allah. To only pleasing Allah. InsyaAllah.

I think that most of us already knew what things and deeds we have to do to gain rewards from Allah.

Thus, let's grab the chance. =)

"Ramadhan is like the rain. It nourishes the seeds of good deeds."

Hard Journey

Time flies too fast. It's been almost a year I have stayed in Jordan. Too many to grab. Too many to learn. But, I realize that I haven't learn so many yet. Hoping that the past time wasn't full only for 'duniawi' thing. And I'm so grateful to be here and met with someone who has guided me to the right path. It's hard for me to accept it for the first time. Always repelling it, escaping from the one who tried to reach me. It's not again my 'fitrah' but it against my 'nafsu'. But when Allah have give me the chance, even I actually do not remember the exact time getting into this. Happy to be a part of this. And insyaAllah being a part of the rising of Islam.

The happy feeling is not everything. I feel the real thing then. It's hard. Yes, really hard! It's not easy changing for a better. Maybe easy to say but hard to work for it. However, I know that this part can't be skipped because it will make a big hole in the future if I try to skip it. I can fall into it anytime. So, I started to be a better person later on. I don't know why is it so hard for me. I felt jealous with others that have changed a lot just after they joined Tarbiyah. For a short time. It's awesome and amazing. Compare to me, the difference is too big.

Every single day, I try to be better than yesterday. Simple to be said. Yet, sometimes, I failed. Frustrated with myself. Give up? I had go through it many times. Alhamdulillah, I passed it successfully. Always having my "life-preservers". That's why, I thank Allah so much for giving me true friends around. They always saved me from drowning in the ocean of obstacles. Aqidah tied us. I really hope that this relationship will be forever till Jannah. InsyaAllah.

This true short story is about me. I am pretty sure that others who have joined and will be joining Tarbiyah have different kind of stories. Allah has many ways to give His 'hidayah'. Until now, I still feel the same way. Hard. Full of barriers. 'Nafsu' and 'syaitan'. These things will never going to the end. But, put trust in Allah. Never lose hope. You will find that this path is sweeter than you can ever imagine. And the important is,  the reward in 'akhirat'. InsyaAllah. It's Allah's promise. 

O' Allah, let me be strong until the last of my breath. Let me be the one who put my efforts as much as I am able to, for the sake of Allah and Islam.

Tanya Iman, Buat Pilihan.

Kehidupan manusia ada dua kali,
Mati pula hanya sekali,
Jadi kenapa mati sekali itu perlu disia-siakan?

Kenapa hidup pertama kita lupa daratan?
Hidup tanpa manual kehidupan,
Penuh jahiliyah serta tiada tujuan,
Berfoya ke sini dan ke sana,
Seolah tiada kehidupan buat kedua kalinya.

Nikmat dunia tak mahu dilepaskan,
Mencipta berbagai-bagai alasan,
Tak sedar objektif dihidupkan,
Terlalai terleka lupakan Tuhan,
Mengikut nafsu dan jejak langkah syaitan.

Inikah yang kita semua mahukan?
Hidup pertama lalui dengan penuh kemewahan,
Terasa diri berkuasa,
Rasa diri punya segala-galanya,
Tapi bila ajal menjemput,
Menjadi orang paling hina,
Membawa segala kejahatan,
Ke alam hidup seterusnya.

Balasan diberi setimpal perbuatan,
Dosa pahala,
Syurga neraka,
Nikmat atau sengsara,
Semuanya adalah ketentuan dari Tuhan,
Namun letaknya antara dua,
Berada di tangan manusia.

Kehidupan pertama Allah sudah bagi amaran,
Peringatan juga petunjuk jalan,
Al-Quran sebagai manual kehidupan,
Kita hidup diberi pilihan,
Nikmat duniawi atau ukhrawi,
Kanan atau kiri,
Jalan bengkok atau yang lurus.

Tepuk dada tanya iman,
Yang mana satu jadi pilihan,
Sebelum datang ajal kematian,
Sebelum kiamat menjelmakan diri,
Sementara pintu taubat masih terbuka,
Sementara Allah masih boleh bagi keampunan-Nya.